I’m currently in the middle of nowhere with my imac and a novel to keep me company :))
On my blog I like to share words, pictures and things that inspire me, music inspires me a lot. I struggle sitting in silence and it can have a profound effect on my mood.
I have two songs I want to share today that I’m playing repeatedly on my playlist!
White lies - fairwell to the fairground
'Keep on running, keep on running…there's no place like home.'
Christina aguilara - you lost me
'We're left as shells, who lost the fight. And we had magic, and this is tragic.'
Two amazing songs, I love finding inspiring new music, my tastes are quite broad just nothing to heavy on any genre! But do drop me some bands and singers you think I might like to edit too! X
I had a choice today to accept being treated badly or make a positive move to move away from that, I chose the latter and I’m proud of myself, it is not always the easy choice but I am better than that. I am an icreadibly strong and independent person but of course we are all victims at times and loose our way.
This is going to be the theme of next year. I’m very excited about 2011. I have a great team of ppl working with me and lots of ideas and drive. Its taken a long time to find the right ppl to work with who you just have a great work ethic with and I’m gtng there once you have that you can work so much better and quicker! I’d say its the trigger allowing you to start producing what’s in your head, ppl who you don’t need to fully direct because you just get each other and you grow together.
Also after a few years of struggling with illness following steroids for an injury combined with all kinds of stress, mental house mates, psychos, moving, and other things, I’m feeling back on track healthwise. Things are good. I am finally learning to just be happy in my own skin. It takes so long to feel like that, some longer than others but I’m starting to feel more confident than I have in a while.
Of course next year can, and I’m sure will throw a load of troubles my way , life does! but I will face them as always and just d o what I’m doing.
My motto for 2011 is gng to be this.
' Regret what you did, not what you didn't do'
No finer advice has been told. You may regret things you do for a week, a month maybe a bit longer but really unless you murdered someone (which I didn”t) do you really actually look back on life for any regrets of the things you did do? No just the things you didn’t. The things you did that didn’t work just taught you a life lesson and made you stronger, the things you didn’t do will always linger.
2011 is the year of me worrying less and holding such values on myself. It’s the year of just going with the flow. Easier than it sounds for sure but I will try anyway!
The truth is to be happy where you are and with who you are, to accept everyone has their faults. I have met people so rich you couldn’t imagine, the most beautiful models, are they happy? Well some are some arn’t it isn’t about their situation its about how they feel about themselves. I have let my insecurities stop me acheiving in so many areas of my life in the past and ruin things for me. No more!!!!! Of course its hard but I’ve taken loads of positive steps this year and yeah a couple of bad things but in general I’ve had a good year and the next is gng to be better.
I have started acting classes as photography I adore it is still a passion but it is a job, I never ever just pick up a camera for fun, roam around the countryside taking macros of flowers, if I do I’m thinking, damn I have to edit this! Or can I sell this on stock?! So acting for me is something that’s going to be a pure passion! Sure when I start a hobby I put my all into it!and I’d love to get some roles but in more of an enjoyement way I’m not beating doors down and I won’t be upset if nothing happens. Tbh I hadn’t thought about acting since being a child and loving it but saw 3 grown ups who started in their 20s/ 30s and thought hell why not! So u know me I now put my all into it!
Itss great fun and I think will help in lots of other areas of my life and I’m meeting some great people. I’d recommend it to loads of ppl even if you have no intention of actually going into it.
So there’s my essay of a resolution! What’s everyone elses?
Just finished a mamouth shoot, got so so so many looks done with the two loveliest models….I really don’t know why they get such a reputation, I have never worked with an agency girl who wasn’t anything but lovely …ok i had one semi bad experience but i have worked with so many people and even that she wasn’t awful just not so lovely and amazing as the others I have worked with.
Infact he only time I have experienced diva’ish models is when they are non professionals. Really I do not know why some unexperienced models even consider it acceptable to be rude or apply their own awful makeup after the makeup artist has done her job. You arn’t booked to like what your wearing your being booked to look the way the client wants!
Anyway less of that,
great great shoot and can’t wait to post the results have another 2 full days this week of tests, tiring but great :)
Myself and my wonderful makeup artist Harry sat redoing our portfolio prints all day, I should feel excited and happy to send them to print for what i’ve acheived in the past 6 months but I just feel like I can’t wait to go out and do better. I love being ambitiousl but I’m really trying to get the attitude of being proud of what you have acheived and pushing hard but I do find it difficult to be happy and content with where I’m at, I can’t help always feeling disatisfied, perhaps thats one of the biggest and most challenging skills to learn in this life.
Love this wonderful quote from the monk who sold his Ferrari
Happiness is a journey..You can marvel at the diamonds along the way or keep running…chasing that elusive pot of gold.